Is life really complicated?

 
Life for me is a very much complicated thing. Is it really complicated or am I just making it complicated? Why are some people happy and satisfied with their life? Why am I not? These questions keep on bothering my thoughts. I don't even know how to deal with it.
 
When I was a kid, I used to have a simple and plain view of life-a life full of dreams. I am much focus on building and achieving dreams before. I looked at it as a very simple thing which was easy to deal with and to accomplish for. Well, I used to be an achiever. So, little by little I tried to pursue such dreams on my list. I finish grade school and high school on top for that was part of my list. For me, being on top is a gateway towards future success-for future realization of more dreams on list.
 
My life starts to complicate when I reach college. I’ve seen the greater reality of the so-called life which I think is far beyond from what I’m expecting. I realized a lot of things at that point of time such that I’m not capable of handling things with regard to the realities of life. I found that I do not deserve to be on top way back then for I haven’t build a strong foundation on what is real. I’m just good in my academics but the reality is that I’m not good in life. I’m not even initiative in dealing with random situations. I feel so little with what I’ve discovered. I lose the confidence and self-esteem which I used to wear before. Dreams that were easy to reach according to my childish thoughts fade in just a glimpse. I saw all those dreams left on my list as hard-to-achieve. I even forget to trust my own potentials. It feels like I’m in a different world where everything is strange that even my own identity- I’m not really sure of. I can’t even stand to my own decision. I made such decision for now, later I’ll change. I can’t even understand how my own thoughts and emotions run. Are these things really proves that life is complicated or am I just escaping the possibilities that I myself is the reason for all these complications? Or maybe these situations are not really complicated. It’s just me who think of such for I didn’t know how to handle.
 
According to Confucius, “Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated.The firm, the enduring, the simple, and the modest are near to virtue. With this, I guess I’m the one who makes things complicated here. Maybe I don’t have the virtue which I think is the energy of life. I fail to possess the firmness, endurance, simplicity and modesty of the mind and heart which according to Confucius are near to virtue. Well, I learned that to live life according to virtue will make everything simple and that’s what I’m trying to seek in this life. I have weak foundation of virtues. I’m not firm enough as of this age. I easily get discourage every time I fail. I do have hope but not that strong- the same thing with faith and love. I can’t say that I’m faithful enough ‘coz I’m even struggling for my prayer time. On the other hand, how can I transcend love when I can’t even love my own self? I live my life in insecurities and I hate it much. But above all, I’m trying and struggling to change all these negativities. I guess by now, a lot of things are being wasted but I believe it’s not yet too late to change for the better. HOPEFULLY with God’s grace.
 
 
Realization:
 
Life is not really complicated. It’s simple but not easy to live with. It takes patience, determination and hard work to deal with it. Also you have to wear those important virtues which are significant in life. Challenges are always there for us to learn and to endure. We might fail but it’s not yet the end. Learn to appreciate simple things for in there, you’ll embrace complications with ease. Above all, there’s God whom you can call.
 
 
Everything stated above are just  product of my thoughts and experiences. You’re not called to believe in it. I just made this because I dream to do such. But you’re free to comment. God bless!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

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